Recently I've learned a lot about myself and mostly in the ways that people love me.
I'm someone who loves others with great ease, but yet I struggle with accepting the love that is shown to me. Mostly, it comes from my fear of abandonment. If I give in, and accept the love which is given to me today, I give you the power to hurt me tomorrow.
This is something I've learned to live with.
But then I look at my family, my closest and best friends, and all the others who love on me. They cover me with their love. I accept it, but rarely do I surrender to it. (Why do I feel so unworthy?)
I have felt the burden of anxieties trying to drown me. I have persevered through love, and love alone. It was the people that love me who were quick to pick me up, to let me know that love is greater than any other hardship my anxiety could fathom.
And then I realized it... Loving someone with anxiety demands more than any other kind of love. Above all else, this proves to me how great the love is that others have for me. (How lucky am I?)
And this is something I'm slowly beginning to accept for what it is.
So I present this to you, for all of you that have loved me fiercely, and for all of you struggling to understand someone's anxious mind... Here it is:
What to Know When Loving Someone with Anxieties:
This is very personal for me. I often feel like I'm a burden to others, or that others won't want to be brought down by my irrational woes. It takes a lot for me to open up, and frankly when I do, I'm often scared of the vulnerability. But this same vulnerability is where the magic happens. This vulnerability allows me to be loved and to feel loved. Trust me when I say: I'm beginning to truly see how greatly I am loved.
So, in addition to this series on How to Love Someone with Anxieties, I present to you:
How to Live with Anxiety:
What to Know When Loving Someone with Anxieties (Part 2):
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